Kind of pain in ass!

It’s obnoxious, ridiculous and piss off while you work with this kind of pain in ass person everyday!

It’s alright for me to work with ugly person but not STUPID person !! ARGHHHHHHH!

Case 1:

Upon supplier delivered the goods, the receiving never check the expiry date and received the expired goods at your cost. How stupid?

But end of the day they blamed on your team why never practice FIFO?

Case 2:

When you are seeking assistance on system error, they question why your section is non profit and why order the food item and where’s the cost & P&L goes to? What the fuck?! i am facing a system problem whereby can’t view the purchase order in system, but i have to answer  your cost issue and P&L yet you are not fixing my fucking problem in the system?!!!

Case 3:

Always spell my name wrong in the email and copy to the whole world!

I need some sun light

Lately, i am bit down, depress, confuse in the state of mind …involving some personal matters and working environment issues. *sigh*

In month of May, no celebration for my birthday. I lost my beloved canon ixus camera during one of the gathering at the Curve, Starbuck. I left / slipped off my camera from my bag. *proof* it’s gone! I was blaming myself being so careless and overwhelme on that night.

I felt so handicap without my camera for 2 weeks, till i can’t wait for it no more… i bought a Canon Ixus 80 IS as my new toy! I still saving my budget to get my 1st DSLR soon!

Working wise, no more fun time! more pressure, more shits to clear off, more headache matters to follow up.. sigh..wish me good luck and stay strong to overcome all these!

2 days ago received a call from bank, this nice and kind lady told me she found my name under CCris list which my application got rejected, she urged me to check wiht Bank Negara Malaysia what happen??    I hope by end of this month, there are some sun light shine on me, to clear off the dime dark cloud in days.

wish me good luck and good day aheads!

【罗志祥★人生哲学】

人没有美丑，只有特色，自恋总比自卑好！ 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　机会可以走过路过经过，可是不要错过！ 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　任何的痛苦都要直接面对，不要逃避，因为逃避只会让痛苦无限扩大。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　要先喜欢自己，别人才会喜欢你。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　我不欣赏那种只会把爱挂在嘴上的人，因为说得容易，我会把爱说出来，也会用行动来表现我的爱。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　我的工作哲学就是”在玩中工作”，快乐也是一天，不快乐也是一天，能够在玩中工作，确实让我更能够发挥，而且更顺手，让世界都变得不一样了。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　人最大的失败就是”借口”，任何想做的事情应该实际去做，如果等到错过再后悔说”早知道”，绝对是没用的。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　宁愿当石头，也不要当花瓶。花瓶一下子就看腻了，石头却能愈磨愈光亮，甚至会变成钻石。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　转头只是一个小动作，没有做好就是零分。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　不要先学会可惜，才懂得去珍惜。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　你的健康，就是我的幸福。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　我没有过气，我一直很努力。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　我会一直努力，为了爱我的，和我爱的人。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　与其当花瓶，我宁可当石头，石头会随著时间产生不同的纹，人家看你才看不腻。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　定义是你的事，生存是我的事。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　对我好的和坏的人，都是我的贵人。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　这世度是你不变，你就走下坡。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　担心未来没有用，只要努力时才有安全感。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　机会，是留给「没有准备好」的人。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　时间就像挤牙膏一样，挤一挤就有了。 　　━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 　　未来的打算，都是由明天告诉你答案。

Deal or No Deal?

It’s alright to work with Ugly people instead work with stupid & lazy people!!!

It’s gonna drive me crazy up to wall and nuts when dealing with those people, my patient totally is running out!

Imagine my HR personnel can’t understand what is ‘designation’??

Imagine my staff can’t understand incoming or outgoing material for indeminity form?

Imagine my HR personnel doesn’t update staff movement? staff resigned for 1 month and came back question me? come on, who approved their clearance and wages? Any new hired not even inform me, not even update the department, god know the info will drop from the sky?

Imagine Operation Manager push the responsibility to an associate to perform a manager task and he totally ignore what’s going on? let the associates suffer together?

when bad thing happened, will try to find the culprit! skin off someone’s skin to cover it. skeptsheep oh…

Imagine my cousin keep telling me why the picture i show to her in facebook can’t save the original size? why picture size turn out only 5kb and so small? HELLO! i showed you the hyperlink it showed all 60 photos in thumbnail size, you ought to click on which thumbnail you want to enlarge the photo and save the file up, instead you save up the thumbnail version! i’ve explained 2 to 3 times, why you still can’t get me? do you feel me?!!

ARRGGHGHGHGGHG!!! WTF?! do you all understand simple english and chinese? are you blind or deaf?

Please give me a break!

Traffic jam

Yesterday got up early rushed for SFSMS audit opening meeting at 8am, guess what? early morning i been trapped in traffic jam which rarely happen in Putrajaya! such a ridiculous to me, why? normally i will leave my place by 8.30pm, will reach Putrajaya before 9pm, even many cars but the traffic is kinda smooth. But again, 8am traffic was so terrible if compare to 8.50am traffic condition. ARgghh…

Do you know what happen? due the stupid design of the huge around about and the stupid traffic light configuration. All the cars are heading to the center of round about, all stuck together bumper to bumper due to the stupid traffic light! the traffic light only let you move a few cars and stop you at few steps junction. If you were the driver, definitely frust to the max level!

The stupid traffic jam totally ruin my mood in the morning!

Don’t want to bother me anymore!!

Yeah…rules set meant to be broken! commitments made to be broken..same goes to the promises that u made to me!

If you can’t deliver it, please do not promise me for god sake! It hurts me when i get to know the truth , the reality always be cruel. End of the day, end up so unbearable!! Don’t ever come back stir up my feeling, don’t toying with me, i’m not your pet!

Yeah, people do change, thing change, from time to time. It’s so unpredictable in life! yet so fragile! Concerning the quarrel, sulk, rupture, argument,mixed crumb feeling are killing me softly, eaten my soul slowly day by day by thinking of you, mind and care of what you’ve done and said to me! I’ll have a rather pessimistic outlook on things, with a risk of losing my sleep or appetite. Yeah, i tend to stir up trouble simply out of boredom, which can end up being more hurtful than i intended. Now i’ve deal with the consequences on my own! I shouldn’t treat you SB Nice at the first place!

Sometimes i really do hate myself being care for you that much! more than i suppose to.

I just feel that being ‘used’, i’m not a booty call nor door mat! My forehead doesn’t stated, ‘find me scold me whenever you are unhappy!’ I feel belittle! i feel that i been betrayed! When you don’t need me you push me away, when you need me you will know dial my number!

When you utter the 3 magic words to me, i took a long paused to digest what does it mean ?? brotherly love? more than a friend kind of love? i doubt it! I just took it as a joke, please bear with me, pardon me of what i’ve put out my statement to you which hurt you indirectly whereby i don’t want to get hurt either and i kind of self-doubt that do i deserve you? I’m not rejected you in the way but i don’t have such confidence that can be with you always. But why you turn up such a cruel matter to me? Do i deserve such a treatment from you? come on! if you love one, you won’t go hurt him/her! In fact, the hatred part is the closet person who tell you off. You told me:” i won’t bothering you anymore!” My 2 yrs relationship seems doesn’t worth any penny, even though we went through thick and thin together, relationship is not easy, involved lots of tear, sweat, blood together.

YES, who am i? i am a nobody of nobodies.

You told me gonna to play bowling with me, not even once! you even went for uncountable times without telling me till i found out myself. You mentioned nothing to hide from me, but why you would like to hide such a penny stuff? You not even bother to reply my sms and return my call anymore. Yeah, i am no longer priority in your list! Oh! Silly me, what a pity! I just found it out bit too late! You told me wont allow others to mess up your room, but now you are inviting gals to stay over night! well, i guess i shall mind my own business from now on! I will let go for all, once for all! Needless to tell you how i feel right now! you won’t even bother to listen to me and bother how i feel!? I will stay a distance from now on, keep no stock in whatever you say and whatever you do! since you no longer need me, fine then, i shall terminate the contact , i take the 1st step to move on my life.

Hate me for what i am, love me for what i am not!

so be it!?

This kind of shitty feeling has been bothering day and night, as it will kill me softly.

I just can’t take it anymore as i need to vent all out for all to someone.

As tonight as usual, my night owl buddy, BL is online, i just shared my thoughts with him and my problems that dwelling in my mind for so long , seems tie a big knot there.

After i chat with him, i feel so much better as his words do make lots of sense to me!

“as for friendship, why are you thinking so much about it? hmmm… maybe i don’t value friendship the same way you do, or you value it too much… hehe… “

“my value? hmmm… i mean i like having friends around…

but i wouldn’t cry if they choose not to be friends with me anymore… ppl come and go in life… no real big deal…if you are sociable, you’ll always be able to make new friends…and if you are more reclusive, erm… well, you don’t need too many friends anyway… hehehe”

“lol there’s not such thing as lose a friend that way… there are no good ways to lose a friend…lol, i live because i have other purposes in life other than just trying to make and keep friends… “

“friends are good to have around… but they can only be with you for maybe a couple of hours every weeks… and that’s if they are single etc… once they get into a relationship, the hours are bound to be lower…”

“yeah lar… so why get so worked up over the possibility of losing a friend… i mean you can try to work it out with him/her, but after i did what i perceive to be reasonable, it’s up to her/him to decide…”

“maybe you are being too sensitive… i don’t know what he/she said, but i don’t put too much stock in what other ppl say… “

“yeah lar… i mean if you can criticize or talk about other ppl, you’ll have to be big enough to receive criticisms etc… “

“when i mean you, i don’t mean you personally… i mean ppl in general. “

“knowing you well, means he/she has to always tell you things that you like to hear only?”

“well, in that case, you’ll have to analyse and see if what he/she said is truth…”

“and why does it upset you if all she/he is doing is tell you what he thinks?”

“well, if you are bold and straight, why would you be upset just because he said you are sarcastic?
it’s just a simple comment…”

“first of all, i don’t know what he said… secondly, i don’t know the tone when you talked to him… i mean you may sound like you are being sarcastic, for all i know…”

“lol well, are you sure you only feel for him as a friend? call me shallow or something but i have never met anyone getting upset over what a friend said etc… i mean he/she wouldn’t like what was said but nobody puts in this much time to analyse why he said this and that etc…”

“so? what if ppl say if you look like a couple? if you have no interest in him, it doesn’t matter…”

“but if you only feel that you shouldn’t be together with him cuz of the age difference, that’s just plain silly…”

“i mean if i were to find a girl younger than me, it doesn’t mean that i’m going to be happy with her…”

“the same goes with if i’m with a girl older than me, it doesn’t mean that i’m NOT going to be happy with her as well…”

“so why think about the age difference when perhaps, the more important thing you should think about if whether you like him more than just a friend…”

“it means he feels like you are treating him like a kid sometimes…”

“and that he wants you to treat him like a mature man… someone who is able to carry himself… and perhaps take care of you etc…”

“lol well, if you can’t get past the age thing, nobody can really help you… no matter what we tell you, the age difference isn’t going to be smaller… “

“so decide for yourself… find out wat you really want from him… and stick wit that decision…”

“lol forgive me for saying this but i always laugh when my friends tell me that they are haunted by their past relationships…”

“in that case, tell him once and for all, that you can only treat him as your bro and nothing more…”

“and if he can’t accept it, so be it…”

“so?let him keep quiet then…”

“i mean if he can’t accept that, there’s nothing you can do anyway…”

“yeah i know… you told me that before…”

“but why do you keep saying that ppl always comment that both of you are couples? i mean does that mean anything to you?”

“i mean like whenever i go out with a girl, or when a girl sits next to me, ppl ask us that… if it’s true, i’lll say yes… if it’s not, i’ll say no… but i wouldn’t keep thinking about what it means when ppl keep telling me that…”

“no… but from what you tell me, he seems interested… and you sound like you might be as well, if not for the age difference… but regardless, since you decide that you can only accept him as a bro, then stick with it…”

“huh? why does it matter if he pampers you or not?”

“fine… fair enough… well, for someone who only cares about him as a bro, you sure seem to care a lot about what he does or doesn’t do for you…”

“every one has to treat you the same way because of what you perceive them to be? “

“everyone is different mar…
lol i didn’t do anything… but regardless, i don’t think you should be stressed out over this…
okay mar… i have to go get some sleep now…
you take care k?
if you need any professional advice again, feel free to look me up… hehe
ahem ahem… hehe
tata… “

Preference

I believe everyone of us do have own preference.

I’ve observed and pay attention to certain people who closed to me in my life. Not so details, but just try to get to know each other better without asking and telling much. :p

~J~

• toothbrush – Oral B
• shoe – Caterpillar , Timberland
• shirt – G2000, U2, timberland
• t-shirt – Giordano, U2, Nike
• Hair gel – Loreal
• Perfume – Adidas deodorant / body spray / eau de toilette
• Watch – not wearing
• Facial wash – Nivea
• Shower gel – Dove
• PC – Mac / Sony
• Camera – Sony
• Phone – Nokia & iphone
• Toothpaste – Colgate
• Coffee – Starbuck
• Food – Italian, Indian (banana leave rice, Roti, Tea), Japanese
• Magazine – Time, Photography
• Channel – BBC, Discovery, TV5
• Tissue paper – Tempo
• Colour – brown, green

~M~

• Hair gel – Lucino, Loreal
• Shampoo – Pantern
• Shower gel – Lux
• Magazine – Aerospace, Time, Automotive, Discovery, Geography
• Food – Japanese, Korean, Chinese
• Watch – Oakley
• Facial wash – Neutrogina
• Jean – Topman
• Colour – blue , black, grey

To feel butterflies in stomach

The feeling is good….to feel butterflies in stomach..it’s thrilled!

The feeling you have no word to descript it that how happy you gonna be and the feeling being loved by one.

The moment you gained your trust from one..

The moment one shares email access with you…

The moment one shares food with you…

The moment one carries everything for you and set you free to walk around happily..

The moment one shares facebook access with you..

The moment one greets you good morning and wish you good night and sleep tight every day…

The moment one utters ‘i miss you much’ to you..

The moment one give you a big hug…

The moment one shout at you that ‘ i do care!’..

The moment you know you can’t live without one in life…

The moment is too sweet to forget..

The moment you told me, what if you are not in my life, what i gonna to do? *i’m touch*

The moment you told me, you want me to be here!

The moment you told me that you love me…

Cynical, Ironical

I find that I may be withholding decisions – for a single person. Perhaps he is the last one unsettled business that I needed to complete. A year and a half ago I set out to try to change a life. That is just me, always picking up lost souls and strays in hopes of making a difference that I myself could not bring to my own self. Not that my past endeavours were anywhere near successful and I find myself questioning if it is even within my right to play moral guardian.

Nevertheless, I tried not to be a warden, rather just a guide. I grew to like this ’stray’, perhaps a little too much. For some time I toyed with the idea, but I did not think I was what he needed. I began to have doubts – maybe I was doing it all wrong. In the end, I chose to abandon my little crusade, and hoping for the best, that perhaps life could teach him what I couldn’t.

But in light of recent revelations, perhaps I was wrong to abandon what I originally set out to do. He had gone down the path that I feared and foresaw he would take. But life has always been about personal choices, is it not? I showed him the choices but he chose his path, so why do I feel like I have betrayed him?
There are differences to work out which I have yet to overcome. Things which have I picked up along the way to keep me going which I am still reluctant to sacrifice to sustain a second person in my life. The ghosts of previously failed loves return to haunt me periodically though I might say they are more of an annoyance than a source of fear. I think I have become so jaded that the fear of falling out again seem trivial. However I have not found the generosity in me to forgive exes and former lovers. It feels remarkable to me sometimes how one can love and hate someone at the same time. Perhaps those two are the one and the same after all. Love is hate, hate is love. Without one, there is no other.

Some things never change even if you do.