Tha fact was i loved affection and attention who can shower me with care and love. Pls soak me with plenty of love…
Somehow, the significant one not doing the good job. Our relationship just blossoming recently, but i’ve a feeling it wont going to last long, i feel want to end it, is there anyway he could restore our relationship? SY is not consistant shower me with sufficient care, affection , love and attention. He could told me playing pc games is kind of entertainment, he is not being a bad boy. He just obsessed with games. Yeah …but till the extend pick up the phone refuse to talk to me. He barely understand after a long tiring working hours, i do miss him, i just want to vent my feeling and hear his voice to comfy me. That’s mission impossible to me. I remembered, i told him off not to call me if dun mean it, dun waste my time to worry about him and wait for his call. I doubt he could understand how i feel right now. Whenever he want to spend times with me just pop up once a month, spent less than 24 hrs then he gonna leave me alone, let me find my own program. With him or without him, i dun really find any big deal and difference in my life. I wish he is an enhancer to spice up my life become more colourful instead of causing so many stuff dwelling in my mind till hard to breath.
MM is my buddy in crime, he is caring, cheeky, witty guy.. plied me with funny joke, bit compliment and always teasing me and make my day brighter. whenever i down or happy, he will be there for me instead of SY. Stewpiak SY been never pick up my call for 4 days never return call with any reason. I was upset about it. MM always be there to cheer me up which is not his job suppose to do so. The one i need the most would never feel my pain indeed.
In the beginning, he was so loving, spent lots of times chating with me, joke with me , it would give me butterflies each time! Then slowly, I allowed him to come closer, i feel the situation has been changed. He hardly to call me, always wait me to call him. Don always ask me what i want, open your eyes, listen to you heard and observ what i really want from you. I could tell you 100 times what i really need from you but again could you ever able to give and provide? I dun really need materialistic stuff to satisfy my requirement, my need, my urge.. I want something money can’t really buy , from the bottom of your heart, your sincerity..yeah, god know that you aint romantic kind of guy, but would you able to improve become a better one just for me? Am i asking too much? I wouldn’t want to see we were overcome by lust. Please treat me with dignity, respect, tender loving care. You can tell your whole world of buddies that i’m your gal, but so what? I not even go out with your any single of friends, no one know who am i. You can become so intimacy when with me, once we step out to public, we remain a big gap, walking in the distance like a stranger. Shame to tell you, i love pampering by man, i love cuddle, i love hug, i love kiss. But non of them you prove it to me. You dare to tell me that you dislike kissing. Fine, i hardly to find any strong ground to support our relationship to grow in a deeper direction. I dun even feel your commitment towards our relationship, you just take me for granted.
MM surprised me by asking me our for movie, i feel so touch. He can sms me never fail on daily basis. He would wait for me most of the time whenever i was late for appointment, always carry stuff for me during groccery shopping. Give me a ride when i lasy to drive, anticipate my need, do something little gesture without asking me. I feel grateful to have this kind of friend in my life. Why SY can’t do that for me?
