Numb feeling!

I’ve this kind of numb feeling towards my job.

Everyday drag myself come to work, coz i need the pay to pay off my expenses. I don’t really get my job satisfaction, i feel so demotivated…early morning alarm nudge me, i still rolling on bed dilly dally. Everyday late to work, nothing kick me off a day.

First thing step into office, i will check corporate email, check my personal email, browsing net while, updating my blog if i’ve time.

So numb feeling… everyone not picking up their ball roll their roles. Very lasy ass, anything happen will find culprit. I will do everything for you? alo? i don’t have any obligation to do that? i not been well recognise, fine, i just take it as learning path, stepping stone to pick up new skills, help you once, u over crossed the border, end up become my job. come on, it doesnt counted as that way!

Dead fish….numb feeling!

Breath…

Despite a few times fall in and out from boy & gal relationship, i kinda tired of it…i doubt it..do i still eligible and be confidence to being in love again?

Take a deep breath…love always hurt me the most in life..dwelling in mind on and off, i shall let go..

Is there any possibility to develope from a friendship to love relationship? to move one more step forward? Fear has stopped me to do that!! I wouldn’t want to lose a friend in life. But, he might gave me the wrong message.. Yeah, we just a friend, nothing more than that. Eventhough shower me with care and attention, we just being a buddy in crime. I won’t stop you to chase your dream, knowing you have a huge dream to be achieved and goals in life. Hence, I wouldn’t want to ruin our friendship.

Albeit, i do treat you with my extra care, but i didn’t expect to get whatever in return from you. I would hide the feeling before keep growing wider and deeper, just like venom…stop it before it spread badly.

Everytime i think of you, will create a curve on my face..a sweet smile…that you always amuse me with your stewpiak jokes and tease me non stop, make fun of me. Always know the best word to cheer me up. Of coz you do have better choice out there.

Yeah..please ignore me for days…but not too long..

till one day i stop breathing…but i do care…

Like? Fancy? Love?

What’s the difference of Like, Fancy & Love?

What’s Like??

Like can be used to express a feeling of attraction, weaker than love. In the case of a choice this is also called preference.

What’s Fancy?

Love or amorous attachment.

What’s Love?

An intense feeling of affection and care towards another person.

A deep or abiding liking for something

A profound and caring attraction towards someone.

Love is a basic dimension of human experience that is variously conveyed as a sense of tender affection, an intense attraction, the foundation of intimacy and good interpersonal chemistry, willing self-sacrifice on behalf of another, and as an ineffable sense of affinity or connection to nature, other living beings, or even that which is unseen. It manifests itself in feelings, emotion, behavior, thoughts, perception and attitude. It influences, underlies and defines major patterns in interpersonal relationships and self-identification.

Different people place varying degrees of importance on the kinds of love they receive.

In the many distinct classifications of love including romantic love; sexual desire; platonic love; religious love; familial love; true love; and the more casual application of the term to anything pleasurable, enjoyable, desirable, or preferred, including activities and favorite foods.

I’m kind of confused in love, like & fancy these 3 elements in relationship and life… sigh…