I’ve not seen you for sometime. Ever since 28 June 2007.
It been 2 months over, we never contact each other. Yeah, I’m not there anymore. It’s not easy to maintain a friendship / relationship along the way, is the matter how we face it.
Being act like coward, chicken out, keep quiet endure all, is that a good solution? I might ruin everything and burn my own bridge to tarnish ourfriendshipcoz i went up my way to you too strong and insist want a confrontation. I was being so persisten , impatient to know the truth. I didn’t mean it of what utter my words that day, albeit i knew i hurt your feeling. You just beating bushes around not getting the point, refuse to admit everything. Do you think your action of remain silent will make me feel better? your denial will make me feel better? You rather to keep everything to yourself, indirectly you want me to feel the same pain as you felt.
I been struggled myself, to let go. It just a heart aches and streams of tears after all.
I read this : If you love someone dearly, you should let the person go its own way. Loving someone deep enough is equivalent to the amount of courage one can let that person go because of certain and unwanted circumstances. The process of letting go is not easy either; it takes time for the wound to heal, for the feelings to fade off completely.
There are spaces between what is wrong and right; and one will only know it through time. Fortresses go down, tears streaming — all these will only prove that love can be everlasting if every obstacles are handled appropriately without giving in to fear of losing someone dear. Let times heal me, to proof me that i am wrong or right! Perhaps one day you will totally forget about me, this friend who always willing stand by you if you still need me. And always do miss you to bits. But these all you will never know.
Stuck at home, look at the items you left behind and some stuff you gave to me, deep inside sometimes will be suffocated … wheneveri tend to forget all, things remind me about you. Sigh… muses around…
Till we meet again…i don’t know when…it gonna be…??!