Happiness

Last night a friend asked: what is the happiness in life?

He always craves for ultimate happiness in life, but always hard to get to fulfill himself throughout his life.

A person told him, don’t try hard to look for happiness. Happiness always out there for you, just look up…
Happiness just upon you when you are least expected. Let happiness comes to knock your door.
If you are contented, always can simply find your happiness in life.

Finally

Today i finally manage to see him in real, after 3 months cold war and heart battlefield. At last, he manage walked out from his cave, open his heart again to say hi to me again!

He sounds so early want to pass me back all the dvd, cds, keep asking me when i heading home from work.

Finally we met up at my place, greet each other, mingled bit. The feeling still bit awkward,  i hand in his dvds too. He asked me: did you still practising gaming, still want to play the ps2? if not i gonna take it back and bring it back to brunei.  Ah…! since 3 months i hardly touch the play station2, coz it reminded me of him, i feel bit pain. Better hand off !

Phew! I feel relief, finally i still manage mend back the broken friendship, eventhough it won’t be the same as last time. At least i still keep a friend in my list. No more in pain! Nothing owe him in life.

Wonder

After so long, 3 months over, time flies…

I’ve make my day bit lighter, switch my focus point, move on and ready for new friendship. Mend my broken heart, take all time to get over a person, the healing process went well.

Just out of sudden, i’ve got an email from him yesterday, i just surprised out of his nice gesture, again? He sent his regards to me and concerns on my job hunting process. Hell! when i let go, almost forgot about him, he just act like a rubber band, when he is ok already then toss back. Trying to find way to enter my life again.  What kind of wind blow him back to my side? i just can’t let this kind of situation overwhelm me again. Pegs told me not to let him hurt me further, Grace told me don’t ever put hope on him anymore, he might just back to clear off everything before he leave for good. James mentioned maybe that fellow just spaced out, realises his mistaken even if it’s too late, still think i am still useful person. James told me not to give this fellow a chance yet but listen what he has to say. My big sista & brother told me just be nice to him, at the first place he was the one who not reply me, ignored me. Now he takes the step to open up again to look for me again, i shall not being ’small gas’. Thus, just try best to patronize him for last chance. Go beat the iron while it’s still HOT! Just go ahead to see him, see what he tries to tell me, nothing to lose out. Just pass me back the stuff , drop a hello and go off, simple as that. Not to emphasize much details. His sister even warned me not to mention any awkwardness in the past , don’t look back. Move on…Don’t bother much, don’t ever need to think too much out of this. Nothing else i can do, since he takes the first move to ask me out, better take my courage to face the fact.

Wish me luck, i hope miracle will occur!